Good news! :)

So today was a good day. I woke up at like....1:00 pm (stayed up too late last night ... again
-___-) and wasn't even hungry! :] When I did get hungry I ate a small little granola bar thing. Oh , btw I'm only drinking water now. No soda. Water and juice only. I started only drinking water because I HAD to , due to a bladder infection and medication for it, but then, now It's for good. I'll have a soda every once in a while, but not many. Why drink like 200cals when you can drink 0?
And that's not all. Me,my dad, and my sister went to the YMCA to workout. We did the treadmills for like 30minutes. I really wish I had those treadmills at my house :[ I mean they had little tvs on them or you could plug your Ipod in. Really nice treads :) Anywho, it was a nice day. Not to mention when we got home I took a nice long bike ride. Leg workout day or what?? :D
I felt so awesome. Oh and my dad said I was starting to look skinny...I think he just wanted to flatter me knowing I worked out all day, but it still felt good for him to say that considering he's usually saying how much he wants me to work out and stuff.He doesn't really say it directly , but I still know what he means :P So..yeah. It's 11:27pm now. I'm going to bed by 12 tonight, which isn't too bad considering I went to bed last night at like 3am.... I know , I know. Sleep is good for a healthy body blah blah blah. I know... I'm working on it. Hmm...so yeah. New post tomorrow hopefully :) Btw, I'm done with late night snacks >:D If I'm sleeping I won't need snack :)
Goodnight
xoxo

Hello!

Hi everyone. I'm Emily, and ever since I was little I seemed overweight, or at least I felt very uncomfortable about it (I was always really shy, and still am kinda). Apparently I have actually been a tad bit over the "healthy weight" mark ever since I was 7. What's more embarrassing than having a doctor tell you THAT? Yeah, I guess peeing in a cup....but ANYWAYSSSSS, this is a little blog I'll be doing to...sort of keep track of everything that goes on in the process of losing weight. So, to begin I should just say I have no idea how tall I am. Probably like 4'11 or 5'.Idk. But my heaviest weight was 116lbs, which is where I am now. Once I made it all the way to 101lbs and was SOSO happy because I haven't been under 100lbs in a while and I was only 2 lbs away!But then I was seduced by the evil unhealthy foods. And I basically gave up. AND I ATE LIKE A PIG. ugh. I actually find it easier to lose weight during school instead of summer break. Manly because you only have one chance to eat, and that's lunch. I usually threw my lunch away or ate very little when I was going down to 101lbs. I didn't drink very much either. Mostly because having to leave class to pee is like a CRIME at my school.
Starving myself? I've tried. Didn't last one day.:\ Purging? Tried too. And guess what? NEVER AGAIN. So that leaves me with only one choice: extreme dieting and exercising. Too bad it's so f****ing hard, at least for us lazy girls it is...
I REFUSE to give up this time. This means I need lots of THINSPIRATION.
It may seem stupid, I mean, drooling at pictures of anorexic or very thin girls , but it really helps me continue and not give up. Maybe I don't want to be THAT skinny, but knowing I'll be close if I don't give up keeps me motivated. But sometimes I watch those ... anti thinspo or whatever they call them. The ones where they show obese people? Yeah those. Me and them have a love/hate relationship. I like them because the boost my confidence and make me feel less fat. It's like "I guess I'm not THAT overweight compared to them!". But then, I start to think "If I keep eating the way I'm eating...I WILL look like this D: "
But all in all, they're motivating. OH! I just realized I did not mention my weight goal. I'd say about...80lbs. Kay? Kay.
And now, I must end this post, for I cannot think of anything else to say.
Good bye, until the next post.
xoxo